Apologies
I apologized that I have kept my blog inactive for a extremely long time. I’d really can’t find the time to write anything or think of anything to write. Sorry once again (:( <—don’t give me this face give me –> :))
1 : about iCIT
Ok, finally I’ve become a iCIT (councillor in training) after a selection camp. When I’d applied for this, I though it would be great if I had become a iCIT, but actually, I’m really getting tired of leading anyone else.
First, I have always kept a very peaceful stance when I lead, trying to keep other people out of trouble. But when I do so, I would be disappointing someone else or something. So I would commonly compromise, but this leads to compromised solutions, that means both parties are not satisfied.
This iCIT job I hold, I would serve my best. But really, I think that leading bring yes, a lot of trouble, always I thought would end up in satisfaction. But all that ends was mostly misery, yes I must admit sometimes joy, but most people I know who leads, actually are not good leaders.
2. about Darrel ( in continuation to “most people who leads are not good leaders”)
Most people likes Darrel, and some (if not most) think that he is a good leader.
To my horror, what I found through this selection camp, that Darrel was a dictator, when he commits himself into leading (not commits too much, just committing), he takes leadership places like a dictator. I really fear that he would become a dictator, and maybe you would ask, if Darrel’s a dictator, why is he popular?
The answer is : It is Darrel’s subtle leadership that brings in his popularity.
Now in secondary school I’d think that you have to lead passionately, so maybe Darrel being a iCIT isn’t going to turn out good. Even Jocelyn or Edison leading passionately would be better than Darrel leading passionately.
To Jocelyn and Edison: I do not mean you are bad at leading, but higher than Darrel when you are leading passionately. Can I trust Benjamin to do so?
3. about CCA
To those who doesn’t knows my CCA, here’s it. JUDO. I won’t be surprised if you are shocked. I think during one of my times when I was in subconscious mode did I fill up the e-Application form for CCA (they call it EP3). But this is good. Why?
- In subconscious mode I can’t lie myself
- I can finally have some exercise NEVER
- At least I can fill up my portfolio with good stuff (winning of medals etc)
- At least I can fill up my portfolio with leadership portfolio
I don’t think these are real reasons but I think these are what I can think of. Don’t ask me why can’t I think of real reasons to join judo, but ask my subconscious mind.
4. random crap
I can’t seem to meet any NYGH girls at the bus stop although they are just next door, but surprisingly I met Jue Ying on the bus yesterday.
THIS IS REALLY RANDOM.
Note
To all, I think I wrote this when I am very pessimistic, but I AM worrying about Darrel becoming a dictator. AND this is my first long post, so this SHOULD contain many grammatical and spelling errors.
